1 Peter 2:24 “by his wounds you have been healed.”
Can you say this with confidence? Will you say “I have been healed” even if you do not yet feel it or see it?
What has healed you from? The trash, the old man, self-interest are all gone and have given way to a new way, the Jesus way, on the cross: “Father forgive them for they no not what they do.”
You are wrestling it out. You are grasping at your healing. Apply the truth and believe it. Do not look at what you see but what will be. You are pushing, believing and working to experience this new person in its wholeness.
You are new in heart, purpose and action. You are a new person, a Christ like creation. Say it and look past what you see.